I’m a little sad today. Got together with some good friends, and over the course of the last little while our paths seem to be going in different directions, and it just seems almost inevitable that the friendship we have enjoyed will not be as vital going forward. Today as we talked it felt like there was just this sense of… I don’t know… closure maybe?
I hope I’m wrong. They have been such good friends; I and my family are so much richer as people and as a community for having done life together. And I guess that’s what makes the thought of the loss of regular relating so challenging.
So my heart feels just a little bit raw.
And I feel that sense that I’d like someone to hold me and tell me they love me.
Relationships are hard, and it carry pain. On days like this, a part of me wishes that I didn’t care. But I do. And the hard thing is that these friends are not doing anything wrong, in fact I sense they’re doing exactly what life is wooing them toward. So I find myself wondering; can I celebrate and honor what Spirit seems to be inviting them to? Is there enough grace in me to celebrate their “moving on”?
Sometimes I feel like the greatest challenge is to love people… do life together… to grow relationally.
So will I offer my heart again? Or will I keep it to myself?
Peace, dwight
